Ass kicking fibromyalgia

Or, more creatively, “The day big shot told you so boss of the world met her match”.
I don’t write much about my fibromyalgia.
We have an understanding, fibro and I…I know I am not in charge and will behave accordingly, and fibro stays on the downlow.
I do not like being told what to do.
I am fussy and I want my way…because I have really good ideas and insight, you see.
A stress induced illness that can lay you flat and leave you shaking and exhausted but not able to sleep is a very cruel bedfellow.
Lifestyle choices keep mine in check.
I know this is not the case for many, so I feel very lucky.
Perhaps this is why I love projects, tearing stuff up, decided to be a foster parent, adopted three kids, and love middle school as a career spot generally. 😉
Because of this, I know I have to sleep more, drink little, and avoid complex carbs and sugar…and stress…stress that I do not reap benefits from.
I listen to my body and respond accordingly.
It all started about 14 years ago I guess…far from my mama and daddy.
That was hard.
Many specialists not knowing what is wrong with you.
It makes you feel like a crazy person.
The sleep issues alone are horrible. No REM sleep…in and out of sleep and when you wake up you freak out because you are awake and on and on.
When you don’t have sleep issues, any number of the 18 points of tenderness can give you fits and an aching body will haul you out of bed just because you have laid still too long.
I love to read…LOVE to read, so much that I bet I could read from sun up until sun down, only holding a book for any length of time doesn’t work very well. Most anything with a repetitive movement or staying in one spot for long…not good.
Brain fog…man – bad deal. People think you speak slowly, or are quite distractable, and I am anyway, but keeping a train of thought and focus can be difficult.
Damn DarmaZ, way to make my day with all this cheer right???
Hang in there because it gets better.

It really DOES get better.
I wrote this draft in 2010 and I don’t know that there is much that I would alter.
I thought I might post this as we are into the mix of holiday which brings stress for many.
Keep it simple.
Be well

About attraversiamodarmaz

Midwestern girl who loves big city shopping (note - do not love high heels of any kind) * hate to say that first because I fancy myself a yoga chic too who is into feng shui and a minimalist life but it's just not all true!* I do forget to recycle* LOVE reading and music and most things crafty (the idea of them - very fickle and creative urges come and go faster than light or sound)* Grand chef and baker in my own mind and kitchen - love to mix and match recipes for a glorious new concoction* Gardening would be very successful - I have a flair but short attention span can cause casualties* True bliss is my home filled with three beautiful children (four on the weekends - an amazing Goddaughter)* did forget to feed the beautiful children lunch once when they were too small to remind me* can't find socks for all on some crazy mornings* I'm a learner who just can't help it...a writer in my head, and a college instructor for a half dozen classes a year* can't help my right brain optimism* been a foster mom* am a very grateful mom of adopted children* worst life moment: leaving the E.R. with an empty baby carrier* this is me...pretty much
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2 Responses to Ass kicking fibromyalgia

  1. duffolks says:

    WOW! Love, mamasita/mama

  2. attraversiamodarmaz says:


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