Ramblings from a scattered yet centered soul…

So who knew it would be so hard to begin???

Type.  Delete.  Type.  Delete.  Type Type Type Type…awesome!  let’s preview!!  What???Where did it go??? shit shit shit!

Blank screen.  Type.

I’m already over the first amazing post that was lost somewhere and certain this will be even more in touch with my true intentions or some such nonsense…lots of dot dot dots, I’ll warn you- dash every once in awhile.  My thoughts don’t end, they just link casually to the next with a really relaxed organization…yeah.

Most things strike me in story format.  It’s kind of annoying and difficult to speak concisely when your brain works this way.  Linear, left brain thinkers try to finish sentences for you(me).  I drive my sister-in-law(lawyer) crazy!  I finally told her straight out it was not possible for me to tell her what happened IN the room until I told her ABOUT the room…setting, ya know???  Sometimes one story leads to another with a weak link and I lose people.  I know there is awesome synchronicity between myself and another when they are able to stay with me through the journey of a conversation…my friend from Htown was awesome at this…her eyes would light up, “got it – I’m with you!”.  She’s a math teacher, athletic trainer, and generally lived her live like a Mountain Dew commercial.  Our brains were quite complimentary!  I miss her!  I found her and others on Facebook! 

Do you do this???  Have you done it for years?  It’s wonderful!  It’s like a  first search on the internet with all the vast possibilities or that first AOL chat!  I am quite delayed in the technology world…a lack of focus I think…my beautiful children (I’m not biased – they’re adopted and I hate nothing to do with it), tinkering in the house, tinkering with the garden, getting lost in a creative something, books books books, you get the idea.  I’m quite a youngster to all of the features of FB though.  I will post what’s going on, send messages, and that’s really about it.  I have about 30 requests for different things that I just ignore because I don’t know what to do with them…I tried a quiz or planting a tree and it kept asking me to send it to someone else…what??  is that like forwarding junk mail or something???  can’t I just participate without sharing???  so I ignore it.  Some people who are my “friends” I have never exchanged words with in FB.  I do like seeing what they’re up to though…kind of like being able to keep in touch without picking up the phone or actually having the conversation.  Texting is like this – a bit…do you do this???  texting???  I love it!  just started not long ago with my sitter!  It’s great!  like notes in school!  only not!  I told you I was behind…

It’s not that I don’t have the equipment or know of it…pioneer XM portable radio with a few songs loaded in…I forget to listen to XM and always mean to go to itunes and get that new list of ever growing songs I am now fond of (confession – I do like the song Lovebug by *gasp* the Jonas Brothers).  I have a dash that I answer and text and take three years to put an appointment in, but I think it can probably make me breakfast if I program it – no time to read the book…I have a bluetooth that goes with it and I did use it a time or two but now I forget how to link them up and before I couldn’t unlink them so I’d answer my phone but couldn’t hear because the damn little ear piece was in my purse SOMEWHERE…ahhhhhh…I type away on my little laptop that could(a few years ago) while down at my desk is my new HP Touchscreen that I haven’t quite figured out yet…it’s endless

All this and it makes perfect sense to me why it is so damn hard to find matching pairs of socks and seasonally appropriate clothing for my darlings when I really just want to enjoy my hot coffee in peace!!(I’m forever finding a cold cup of coffee waiting for me when I open my fancy microwave/convection oven that I finally did use as an oven over the holidays!)

I have no idea why my husband is frustrated and keeps trying to talk to me about a budget!  I DO use the vita mix…

I hear the end calling.


About attraversiamodarmaz

Midwestern girl who loves big city shopping (note - do not love high heels of any kind) * hate to say that first because I fancy myself a yoga chic too who is into feng shui and a minimalist life but it's just not all true!* I do forget to recycle* LOVE reading and music and most things crafty (the idea of them - very fickle and creative urges come and go faster than light or sound)* Grand chef and baker in my own mind and kitchen - love to mix and match recipes for a glorious new concoction* Gardening would be very successful - I have a flair but short attention span can cause casualties* True bliss is my home filled with three beautiful children (four on the weekends - an amazing Goddaughter)* did forget to feed the beautiful children lunch once when they were too small to remind me* can't find socks for all on some crazy mornings* I'm a learner who just can't help it...a writer in my head, and a college instructor for a half dozen classes a year* can't help my right brain optimism* been a foster mom* am a very grateful mom of adopted children* worst life moment: leaving the E.R. with an empty baby carrier* this is me...pretty much
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